I'm scared, wonder if I'm prepared
My hands are shaking as they ache,
All too much too soon to take
Concentration has fled me, my mind is wandering all about,
I want to get up from this desk and shout "I'm through!"
I'm done with this, I'm done with you.
I'm done with boys, I'm too old for toys,
I'm done with getting older,
I'm through with fear and humiliation,
I'm done with tears and my failing patience
I'm done with Love and all its troubles,
I'm through with hills, it feels I'll never reach the bottom,
I'm done with math, go solve all your own problems,
I'm done pretending we're still friends, you let us go, you let it reach the end,
Used to shop til we'd drop, we'd laugh and cry,
You made me feel alright when no one else could.
You let go, try as hard as I did to repair, you waved me off, now I'm in despair,
I'm done with trying and I'm done with crying,
I'm through with caring, what's the point of verbally sharing if no one listens?
I'm done with not knowing who I am, you say you care, but do you truly understand?
I'm in pain, I'm at a loss, and I know its my fault,
Fictional characters droping dead, God knows why it sent me over the edge,
This boy died, it wasn't fair, he suffered, but no one cares, he wasn't real
I'm through with not understanding how I feel,
i'm through with this roller coaster, calm down, take it slow,
Don't stop, take your time, look up, look down, above, and below,
Breathe in, and then slowly... let it go.
(note: if you've gotten to the bottom of this post,
thank you for enduring my terrible poetry...
and thank you for your sweet comments on my last post)