Let It Go

I'm scared, wonder if I'm prepared

My hands are shaking as they ache,

All too much too soon to take

Concentration has fled me, my mind is wandering all about,

I want to get up from this desk and shout "I'm through!"

I'm done with this, I'm done with you.

I'm done with boys, I'm too old for toys,

I'm done with getting older,

I'm through with fear and humiliation,

I'm done with tears and my failing patience

I'm done with Love and all its troubles,

I'm through with hills, it feels I'll never reach the bottom,

I'm done with math, go solve all your own problems,

I'm done pretending we're still friends, you let us go, you let it reach the end,

Used to shop til we'd drop, we'd laugh and cry,

You made me feel alright when no one else could.

You let go, try as hard as I did to repair, you waved me off, now I'm in despair,

I'm done with trying and I'm done with crying,

I'm through with caring, what's the point of verbally sharing if no one listens?

I'm done with not knowing who I am, you say you care, but do you truly understand?

I'm in pain, I'm at a loss, and I know its my fault,

Fictional characters droping dead, God knows why it sent me over the edge,

This boy died, it wasn't fair, he suffered, but no one cares, he wasn't real

I'm through with not understanding how I feel,

i'm through with this roller coaster, calm down, take it slow,

Don't stop, take your time, look up, look down, above, and below,

Breathe in, and then slowly... let it go.

(note: if you've gotten to the bottom of this post,

thank you for enduring my terrible poetry...

and thank you for your sweet comments on my last post)

    

“Music speaks what cannot be expressed, soothes the mind and gives it rest, heals the heart and makes it whole, flows from heaven to the soul.”

   

Hey there,

uugh, I'm going through a stressful time and I'm finding music is the only thing thats soothing aside from going to church. Its the only thing that makes me feel like everything really will be ok. I want to spend forever sitting at my piano playing my heart out until the left side of my brain is dizzy lol. I'm scared, I'm nervous, I'm hopeless, I'm sad, and I'm happy. How can a person be all of those things at once? Hormones. There's a always scientific answer, huh? So, I'm going to focus more on music than on how i'm feeling. Then when I get up from my piano bench, I'll feel better and whole again.
Anyway, the point of this post is that music is so many things for so many different people. I love it so much, no matter what kind really. What does music mean to you?



“Music is enough for a lifetime, but a lifetime is not enough for Music."



"Music is what feelings sound like"




"People haven't always been there for me, but music always has."-Taylor Swift

 

"Music is love in search of the word."

Crazy Dreams

So guys!  I've been tagged by my own blog.  Haha, that's a first!  This is the MP3 tag, and what ya gotta do is  put your iPod or other music device on shuffle, and hit skip for every question... Whatever song it "lands" on is what your answer is, no matter how crazy it sounds!  I love this kind of tag, hehe, so here it is!

1. Are you Male or Female?

Tell Her About It, Billy Joel

2. What do people feel when they're around you?

So Small, Carrie Underwood (HAHA that's funny... usually that's how I feel around other people!)

3. Describe your current relationship?

It Takes Two, Hairspray Cast (kinda true acshullayy)

4. Where would you like to be right now?

Fifteen, Taylor Swift

5. How do you feel about love?

The Best Damn Thing, Avril Lavigne (nooo... just... no.)

6. What's your life like?

I Just Can't Live A Lie, Carrie Underwood

7. What would you wish for if you only had 1 wish?

Burning Love, Elvis Presley

8. Say something wise:

Poker Face, Lady Gaga (haha, this makes sense in... some... ways.)

9. How would you describe yourself?

You Belong With Me, Taylor Swift (umm... I am with you Addie.  we're the same person.)

10. What is your life's purpose?

Beautiful Mess, Diamond Rio

11. What is your motto?

Sideways, Dierks Bentley

12. What do your friends think of you?

I Go Back, Kenny Chesney

13. What do you think of your parents?

Don't You Know You're Beautiful, Kellie Pickler (haha)

14. What do you think of very often?

My Maria, Brooks & Dunn (HAHA that's hilarious.)

15. What is 2 + 2?

Home, Daughtry

16. What do you think of your best friend?

Virginia Bluebell, Miranda Lambert

17. What is your life story?

The Climb, Miley Cyrus (hmm, somewhat true haha)

18. What do you want to be when you grow up?

Daydream Believer, The Monkees (OH YEAH!!!!)

19. What will you dance to at your wedding?

Hillbilly Bone, Blake Shelton & Trace Adkins (haha YEAH!!!)

20. What will you play at your funeral?

Complicated, Avril Lavigne 

21. What is your hobby or interest?

Teardrops On My Guitar, Taylor Swift 

22. what is your biggest fear?

The Grass Is Blue, Dolly Parton (no!! if grass was blue then... that would be freaking amazing!)

23. What is your biggest secret?

What Hurts the Most, Rascal Flatts (ohh... we're getting personal here)

24. What do you think of your friends?

Enchanted, Taylor Swift

25. What will you repost this as?

Crazy Dreams, Carrie Underwood

I love how some of these fit me perfectly whereas others don't make any sense :)  That's what makes this tag so amazing!  I'm not gonna tag anyone, but y'all should do it!  Because it's amazing!    

Have fun with it guys!

Behind the Wall

Hi guys, here's a quick post! I just got a tag from Random Rawr. The rules are:
You have to put your entire MP3 player/iPod on shuffle and answer the questions. No skipping a song either! Here goes:

1. Are you Male or Female?
Brown Eyes - Lady Gaga

2. What do people feel when they're around you?
The Battle of Evermore - Led Zeppelin

3. Describe your current relationship?
Something in Red - Lorrie Morgan

4. Where would you like to be right now?
White Liar - Miranda Lambert (ha-ha-ha)

5. How do you feel about love?
Jesus Take the Wheel - Carrie Underwood (Yes!)

6. What's your life like?
Except For Monday - Lorrie Morgan

7. What would you wish for if you only had 1 wish?
Better than Revenge - Taylor Swift

8. Say something wise:
Fly on the Wall - Miley Cyrus

9. How would you describe yourself?
For My Lover - Tracy Chapman

10. What is your life's purpose?
The Story of Us - Taylor Swift (haha, coincidental much? Look up at the banner ^)

11. What is your motto?
If Not Now... - Tracy Chapman

12. What do your friends think of you?
Mine - Taylor Swift (hahaha)

13. What do you think of your parents?
I'd Lie - Taylor Swift (ummmm.... Not about the bad things... Just the embarrassing ones)

14. What do you think of very often?
Catch Me - Demi Lovato (Yyyyeah..)

15. What is 2 + 2?
Change - Taylor Swift

16. What do you think of your best friend?
All the Women I Am - Reba McEntire

17. What is your life story?
This is the Life - Hannah Montana (Yes, I still have her on my iPod)

18. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Eh, Eh, Nothing Else I can Say - Lady Gaga

19. What will you dance to at your wedding?
Mean - Taylor Swift (Ahh no!)

20. What will you play at your funeral?
Fifteen - Taylor Swift

21. What is your hobby or interest?
Innocent - Taylor Swift

22. what is your biggest fear?
The Vampire Song - Concrete Blonde

23. What is your biggest secret?
The Fame - Lady Gaga (Yes, i am secretly famous!)

24. What do you think of your friends?
Caroline - Concrete Blonde

25. What will you repost this as?
Behind the Wall - Tracy Chapman

I loved this tag! Addie, you must do this too lqtm (Laugh Quietly To Myself)  If you read this post and want to do this tag, please do!

Winter is on my head, but eternal spring is in my heart.

Hello everybody,

Uugh, Winter is cold and wet and snowy and damp and chilly and windy and it feels as if its getting the best of me. New Years resolutions are trying to be kept, papers are being written, and every little snowflake that falls counts. But by morning after the snow has fallen, our little white blanket has gone and leaves a large brown patch in its place. Christmas is over, the tree has been put away until next year's joy finally comes round again. The happiness and anticipation of Christmas and Advent has fled, school is back in session, and our 100 mile per hour lives have started up once again. Christmas is a busy time, yes, but it seems we all slow down at some point to admire the Tree, to hang the stockings, and to play a small bit of Christmas music. Much to my dismay, it gets on my nerves. I'm generally a happy person, but the music just.... is a bit too happy. Even through Christmas joy.
Why am I talking about Christmas two weeks later? I don't really know, I guess I'm wishing I could go back. Confusion has set in, whereas I wasn't thinking about it before during the holidays. Now as I write this, I look out the window and wonder how my friends are doing. I"ll see them tomorrow of course, but part of me wants to see him and part of me doesn't. Its complicated, and I don't know how the heck I feel. It sucks you know?
Whereas your friends have boyfriends, they've overcome the nervousness, the feeling of not knowing what to do or what to say. Where do you put your hands when your talking to him? At your sides, in front of you, behind you? How long do you keep eye contact? What do you do when he comes to sit next to you? When his eyes sparkle, how do you hold on to what you were about to say before you got distracted by them? They're brown, they're blue, they're green, they're gorgeous. The guy's eyes matter a lot to me for some reason. What do you do when he smiles at you? Or when he laughs? You're distracted and you laugh too late and it ruins the moment. How do you avoid that? When you're nervous and he brushes your arm or touches your hand and you flinch, what does he think? Does it bother him, does he see that I'm nervous? He tells me what he wants to be when he graduates high school, when he goes to college. Does he tell all of his  friends this? Am I just making the fact he told me, special?
At first, he talks to me like he's bored, but I didn't start the conversation. Then he brings up another subject, and our friends join in. I laugh, so doe he, why am I paying such close attention? I"m not supposed to, I don't like him. I promised myself I didn't, that I wouldn't. And I won't, but does it count as liking him if I think about him after I see him? He doesn't like me, I know he doesn't. Someone told me who he likes, but I can't get over his eyes. I just can't stop remembering how they sparkled. The verse, "This night is sparkling, don't you let this go. I'm wonder struck, blushing all the way home. I'll spend forever wondering if you knew I was Enchanted to meet you." resounds in my head. Am I being dramatic? Have you even read this far after you probably got bored up there, after my ramblings? Are my questions getting on your nerves yet? Because its ok, they're getting on mine and I'm the one typing them. Why can't God just give me the answers to these questions? Why, oh why, must I figure them out for myself? At this point, Algebra is easier to dissect and solve.

 You can't help the way you feel.

I love to dance in the snow.

And wear turquoise mittens.



please don't be in love with someone else



Please don't have somebody waiting on you.

Imagination is a Gift to be Used

Hey guys!

So I thought I'd do a post since I haven't done one in a few days!

It's funny, I was checking out different blogs people recommended and I've come across 2 awards that I made like 8 months ago! It was rather cool I have to admit, that they're still circulating. The rules have been changed and customized to how other people think they should be done and I love it when people go wild with their imaginations. Why did God give us imagination if we were never supposed to use it? I think it should be taken advantage of at any given opportunity.

I guess there's really no point to this post, but I'm gonna link some bloggies that I think are very creative and imaginative and deserve to be recognized. So here they are:

Bug Being Bug

Pigs Flying

A Little Bit of Randomness

~With Love and Kisses~

Random Rawr

Just Another Wide Eyed Girl

Simplistic Intentions

Just Another Little Blog of Epic 7 Things

Go read their stories will you?

Soundtrack of 2010

This year (er, I guess it's last year now), music really comforted me whenever I was feeling down... It also added to my happiness when I was feeling... up!  Music really meant a lot to me in 2010, so I thought it would be a cool idea to make a playlist of songs that just meant a lot to me all of that year.  Each song is either there because I absolutely LOVED the song this year, or it described my life at some point in time.   Or both I guess, haha :)   It's called Move Along, because that's probably the song that meant more to me than any other song this year.  I've posted a few YouTube videos for my favorites.  So here it is! Check out Gabrielle's post beneath this!

Title: Move Along

Artist: Various Artists

Year: 2010

1. Daydream Believer, the Monkees

I just love this song, and it always had a way of cheering me up when I was sad 

2. Enchanted, Taylor Swift

Haha... no comment here ;)

3. Fifteen, Taylor Swift

I started high school this year and this song really described me. 

4. Don't Stop Believin', Journey

This is probably my life's song!  It's my motto.  

5. Turning Home, David Nail

This song is just about a guy singing about the past, how it was so much better than and stuff...I really related to it.

6. Haunted, Taylor Swift

Ah, one of my friends just randomly stopped talking to me and I had no idea why.  I was so upset.  This was my song then...

7. Love Stinks, J, Geilis Band

Haha, I found this out this year ;)

8. Invisible, Taylor Swift

Again, no comment... 

9. Tell Her About It, Billly Joel

I started giving relationship advice... and in this song, the singer is basically telling a guy how to treat a woman right.

10. American Honey, Lady Antebellum

I just loved this song... all year.

11. You Belong With Me, Taylor Swift

Haha.  I always knew that at some point in my life I'd find myself singing this song.  And this was the year.

12. Temporary Home, Carrie Underwood

This is also another one of my life's songs that could be on my soundtrack of the year until I'm an adult.... My family is constantly moving, so it's always comforting to know that I won't have to live where we live forever.  This song was just a reminder that really helped me this year :)

13. Complicated, Avirl Lavigne

I learned that life... is complicated.  And it gets more and more so every year.  

14. Mine, Taylor Swift

Haha, this is just one of my favorites of 2010 :)

15. Telephone, Lady Gaga

Another favorite of 2010.

16. Today Was a Fairy Tale, Taylor Swift

Hehe.  Not telling the secret behind this ;)  Maybe someday but for now I remain silent.

17. Move Along, the All-American Rejects

And of course, Move Along!  I learned this year that no matter how much your life sucks, no matter how many things go wrong, it always gets better, if you just move along.  

So that's my soundtrack of 2010!  

Chapter 1: The Friendship Challenge

Hey everybody its Gabrielle!

Addie and I have decided to come up with a 7 Day Challenge! There are a lot of challenges going around such as this, so we thought we'd make up our own. Its called The 7 Day Friendship Challenge!

Day 1~ Tell who your best friend is and describe them
Day 2~ Tell what the craziest thing you've ever done with your best friend is
Day 3~ Tell a quote or song that describes your friendship perfectly
Day 4~ Tell of a fight you once had with your best friend
Day 5~ State 5 things you and your best friend have in common
Day 6~ Tell of an inside joke between you and your best friend
Day 7~ Tell of your favorite memory with your best friend

Without further ado, I shall start the challenge!

Day 1~ Tell who your best friend is and describe them

Well obiviously Addie is my best friend and I freaking love her! Check at the bottom of the Quotes list on the left sidebar. <---  I said that the other day, and it inspired us to have a quotes section. As for describing Addie, she has curly brown hair that i love love love, I wish had really curly hair. And she also has freckles, i think freckles are so cute! I guess after knowing her for 4 years, I love pretty much everything about her because she's my best pal and I don't know what I'd do without her :)

So that wraps up this post, I hope you do the challenge and its brings that happy feeling of nostagia back to you :) God bless you and your bestest pal!!




This looks just like us



A New Blog? Excitingness!!

Well I feel like I have had nothing to do with this blog so far so I feel kinda bad so here I am writing a post!  Whoo!!  So this blog is pretty similar to our old one.  Except... we didn't put NEARLY as much thought into it.  Haha, but that's cool, some of the best blogs come out of someone being bored, searching for something to do on the internet.

Anyway so Happy New Year everyone :)  I hope 2011 is your best year yet.  I sure hope it's mine, too!  For me, it always seems like the best year of my life is the one I'm in at the moment.  2010 was the first year that I didn't feel that way... Well, I suppose from August-December it did, but yeaaah.  I hope that 2011 will be better.

So what are YOUR resolutions?  I've posted mine on my other blog, but basically I want to 1) write more often, 2) become a better musician, 3) help people as much as I can.  I was pretty proud of myself this year, because in 2010 I made the resolution to make new friends... And guess what?  I did that!!  Yay me!!  That's about the first time I've ever kept a resolution, hehe.

I think that I should end this post before it gets too long... So without further ado...

 Here's to a better 2011!  

Happy Christmas and a Merry New Year!

Hey guys its Gabrielle!

I hope you guys had a great Christmas and that you're enjoying New Year's. I LOVE New Year's Eve, its been such a big deal for me since I was probably about 3. "Daddy, we have to see the ball drop! We have to see the ball drop! Turn it on!" I'm still frantic about it cause I don't to miss it, especially the preformances from various music artists. Last year it was Jennifer Lopez and man did she put on a show. Iiickk, her outfit was awful and if she wasn't lip synching, then she has a great voice! One day I will go to New York and see the actual ball drop! Anyway, that's irrelevant to me and Addie, i gotta remember some stories that have to do with New Year's!

Anyway, you might remember from my other blog that I did a Photo Friday type thing where I posted a bunch of pictures. I do it cause I'm obsessed with weheartit.com and photography in general. A picture can just speak so much, ya know? I don't know what to call Photo Friday anymore because I never post regularly on Fridays. Maybe you could help me with that....? Haha, I'd appreciate it. :) Happy New Year's!!!

And now for some New Year's Resolutions:

1. Read 11 books cause its 2011, but that won't be too hard since i'm reading all the time.

 2. Be less judgemental of people, its so wrong and I do it without realizing, so honestly thats a big one for me :)

3. Go out of the country SOMEWHERE! i'm dying to travel

4.  Get along better with my mom.

5. Talk to a boy... and have an actual conversation. I'm kinda bad at that.